Hey, I'm a dude and I'm not gay ( Please no hate comments or you are gay or wrong).?

Anyway my mom has been married with this guy named Stu for 6 years and he has a really big bulge! It sticks out in his pajamas like 4 inches away from his stomach and when he bends down it goes up like 3 inches. I always wanted to know what was behind that curtain that gave me BON3RS. I Sneak into the bathroom before he uses it and i record him urinating and it is strong against the water. And one day i wanted to see more so i used my camera to video of him naked and his was like 9 inches soft!!! i got a ***** so badly it stuck up so high! And i can never look at him the same way. Whenever he comes near me i get a *****, what do i do. I feel bad about what i did. PLEASE HELP!